Thursday, April 22, 2010

Swallowing the Sword of Damocles

The other night I finished the fourth and for-now-final robot hunting portrait. I intend on doing more of these, probably more in the vein of said robot hunters lounging in their dens with human components displayed above brick mantles as trophy mounts. But as of now, it's these-

great silver hunter

portrait of a mechanical hunter

hunt on the windy cliffs

silver swordsman


I'm happy with the colors. The first is my favorite. Something about the blank face of the mechanical man. Poise. Dignity. Dispassionate murder-love. But yes, that's one for the books.

I finished off the watercolor pad I was using with that last item. I picked up something a bit bigger and considerably more fancy. Moleskine. Class act. We'll see how it takes to paint tonight, my first impression is that I'll be able to do clouds the way I like on this thing. By morning you'll be able to see a family of mangled elk grazing on the grasslands. My intention is also to paint several mangled-though-functional creatures having a good time while missing portions of their precious corpus. Hare is next on my list, followed by probably 3 or 4 others. Fox, bear, badger and owl are what I'm thinking. Some of my favorite creatures. That list could grow, but it'll be those at least. Working in series keeps me moving.

In other news, the possibility of financial gain has peered it's skittish head over the horizon. If it pans out it will mean a lot of things, but mostly that I'll be wearing a tweed suit every day for the rest of my life. Fingers crossed, horseshoe hanging.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Steady she goes

Hopefully, as soon as I wrangle my various poops into various groups, I'll have prints off the ground. My first run is going to consist of 5 portraits of classy animals and 5 battle chap engagements. After those turn into a big shining pile of gold, I'm going to set my sights on another run. If it amounts to anything. I try not to let my delusions of grandeur run amok, but if I'm not perched atop a small hill of gold bars in two months I'm going to be very disappointed. I've got not a few debts to repay, one in particular that pains me on a daily basis. The owner of it should expect some recompense soon. It'll never heal the divide but it'll ease my mind a bit.

After I get these done, I'm going to work on getting printed a series of these-
great silver hunter

Right now, I've got a million portraits of upstanding victorian robots posing for hunting portraits running through my brain. I've painted two (well 1.75), pencil on a third, at the end of it I'm hoping to have 5 at least. As a side note, if I had any money at all to spare on such things, I'd dress like that robot every day of my life.

My pace has picked up considerably. I'm glad for that, at least.

Attachment is a weird thing. It can grow upon something by force of memory alone, and wane by the same. Mine stand strong still, living vitally off the memory of bad times made better and worse. Places I'll never go back to. I'd be better off leaving these by the wayside, but I won't. Now if you'll excuse me, there appears to be combat outside.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Godspeed Osiris

On occasion, life among the lowest dregs reveals something powerfully amazing. Tonight, as I stood outside smoking my wretched cigarettes, I was approached, as I often am, by someone adrift through the pitiless night. This man stopped, addressing me in a scholarly tenor withered slightly by his advanced age, and introduced himself as Osiris "master poet, painter of oil on canvas, and world scholar." I curse my feeble brain, for I can't remember half of what the man said, though all this took place not 5 minutes ago. He told me, and all this is true, that I had the most wonderful beard he had ever seen on a citizen of the world, and that I was possess of "a mental acumen sharper than the edge of a sabre sword." He asked if I would not be adverse to hearing a recitation, and asked if his recitation could by chance garner a small donation. I said it would, and for me this is unusual. My opinion regarding the masses straying idly through the dark, misdeeds and maladjustments provoking their every action and reaction to the world around them, always desperately gnashing through the drug addled haze for some addled soul to leech another fix off of is decidedly against. I'm no humanist in this regard. Compassion and goodwill are virtues, but generally speaking charity to an evil person is a discharity to the world at large. But I digress.

I told Osiris, a stick thin man in a blue suit coat and red scarf, his tightly curled beard gone to grey to match his closely cropped pate, speech hissing and teeth missing, movements jerky and manner erratic, that a recitation would indeed see donation, and he began. Again, I twice curse my own addled brain for it's goldfish memory, because Osiris launched headlong into a series of poetic recitations with vigor and vim, gesturing softly and speaking in a rapid stoccato. He moved from place to place, praising sadness and rain, exalting the skies and the earth. I listened in rapt attention, knowing all the while that my pathetic brain was allowing this to fall from it like water off the proverbial. I was moved by this, the entire scene. Knowing all the time I would never begin to be able to recall the things the man had said verbatim, this silver tongued poet continued on, line after line, silver ships and flowers in the field he recited. It was beautiful.

My cigarette finished along with his poetry and I handed him 20 dollars. I wish I could give him something more meaningful than money, but it's what he wanted. He pushed my hand back, eyes going wide at the sight of Andrew Jackson's murder-happy face in green on my palm, and announced, "Osiris the master poet is not finished reciting!!!" He straightened up, gaze fixed on the middle distance, but words wouldn't come to him. He began to weep softly and kissed me on the cheek. I hugged the man. He told me that I was God's own arm. I told him I was just an appreciator of craft. He told me that he didn't know what brought him there that night, but whatever it was it was important. I might agree. I opened the door and bid him godspeed, and he was away into the night.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Paiting progress and the snail's pace

Recently my hands have been shaking. I haven't been able to draw. It's irksome as all getout. Over a couple of days I managed to produce something I am moderately pleased with. I was going to keep going on it, but the dull sensation in my hands put in me the fear of ruining the thing. Bah. anyway, it's here-

The tower at the edge of the world

Inspired a bit by Sidney Sime, I think. My first attempt at painting clouds and sun like that. Turned out alright I think.

Tonight I met a biologist at the hostel, in town to examine the cal academy's specimen collection for a book he is writing about spiders. The topic turned to skulls, and I showed him pictures of the disarticulations I'd done. He was impressed enough to promise me a beaver's skull on his next trip through the city, in about a month. Jackpot.